Bloggie-chan

bella's wedding

2011-12-19T08:04:00.000-08:00

chukahamnida!!
happy wedding for bella and haikal.
*mcm cite twilight kan? name bella pulak tu*
but at least you happy with your life. :D
we also pray for both of you guys to live happily ever after!
:DD
i still cant believe you are married!

me with baby safa. :)

a longtimenosee friend. :) *amir*

jawa poyo

the one

2011-12-10T21:30:00.001-08:00

hey bloggie-chan!!
hahaha! i just read awatif blog, and guess what? i'm in there! *segan+bangge*
hahahahahahaa!!
actually the main reason i want to look at her blog is to know about their trip to zoo melaka.
aaahhh~ i'm sooo unlucky cannot go with them! because my father came
jealous jealous jealous!
hahahahah~
minta maaflah, saya x de gamba byk2 cam awatif. but at least i can share some!

hey awatif! *mcm biase lah aku jerit panggil die*
she's a great friend+ex-roomates
i know that i didint notice you during MDS and it's the first time i've seen you at dataran keris lending me your glue. hahahahaha
igt x time tu aku tanye sume org. ada gam x? ada gam x? sape adaa gamm?
pastu aku toleh pandang kau. pastu kau bagi. pastu bila dapat gam tu, aku notice that kat kertas maybe borang kot ade tulis TMH1002. so.. terlintas lah.. 'eih? kita roomates kan?'
ahahaha! tp x pernah notice pon selama beberapa hari di situ.
hahahahahaha!! sorry lah! smpai skrg aku menyesal macam... segan sendri. HAHAHAHAHAHA!!
yelah, kita dorg ni macam dua org yg x bercakap banyak dlm bilik tmh1002 tu kan. xDD

okay! after few sems that we've been through
igt x mase kita same2 frust dpt markah rendah. aku naik atas katil adila(dulu) pastu kita baring menyidai diri di bawah sinaran lampu pendaflour tu. merengek2 pastu diam... terbaring.. x terkata.. hanya mampu mengenang nasib takot impact final je. hahhahahaha!

pastu2!! aku hack fb kau pastu kau hack balik aku punye. hahahah
tgk movie same2.. cerita sini ada hantu tu.
mmglah, kalau aku nak tgk cite hantu, mst aku ajak kau tgk skali sbb aku takut. at least, aku x de buat tindakan cam baling laptop aku ke, sepak ke. hahaha. boleh menyorok muka aku kat kau. hahahahahaa.

sgtlah baaanyaakkk kita buat same2
kalau jalan roomates je, mst kita paling depan skali, sbb jalan cepat. padahal biase je. hahahahaha
bila jalan2 tu mst nyanyi2. pastu story2 sket. :DD

p/s : awatif is such a great girl! :D she reminded me everytime to pray because sometimes i forgot. and suddenly, i'm getting to used solat everyday. :D i'm greatful with that because she reminds me about Allah. Ya Allah, forgive me for all my mistakes and wrongdoings. i'm a bad girl. how can i forgot to say Alhamdulillah to you everytime you give your love and blessings towards me. i'm so greatful right now. you give me a great friend that always care about me, a person who always remind me because i'm a clumsy person, a person who was always there for me and a person who love me for who i am. :)

p/s/s : saranghae! dan aku bukan KOREA! aku melayu! kau sgt pandai! go girl!! nt ajar aku lagi ye!

p/s/s/s : ape p/s tu? x fhm. smpai skrg masih carik jawapan

reason

2011-12-08T09:04:00.001-08:00

hey bloggie-chan!

how are you lately?

i took some pictures so you know my latest news

there's reaaaalllyyy reeaaallly a lot of stories i want to tell you!

but unfortunately it's only just between you and me!

promise me ok! :D

i'm a part 4 business student now in uitm lendu, melaka

but still, i cant become matured

of course! i learn a lot of things that i never thought of learning it before

met peoples who i never thought that i would be friend with her/him

smile sometimes laughing remembering my school days

missing a lott my old friends!

gyaa! TT^TT

and when the time passed by,

sometimes i forgot who am i actually.

i forgot to become myself.

sometimes i wants more attention, and forgot how was feel abandoned before.

feels lonely is not obvious anymore.

so tell me whaaayyy i'm becoming like this?

greed? am i too greedy to own my happiness?

answer : YES.

i'm annoyed with myself lately, i'm thinking a lot how can i find the real me.

but i still cant contact her these days. wonder where she would be.

ouh!

yesterday abang niez called me, and seperti kanak2 yg suka merengek

ye, saya suka merengek

dan merengek

and then told the stories..

he gave me explendid advises. he tells me what should i do.

or things getting worse

i know that.

but i just dont have courage anymore.

i'm afraid to lose my friends. although maybe some of them are fake ones. haha!

ouh! last tuesday my friends and i went to dp-mp-hattensquare

wirda and fifi bought new bag.

me+emy+ayep thought wants to watch arthur christmas

but terbantut sbb 3D. hahaha. lagipon dorg puasa.

so, we went walking around~ cuci2 mata. eat~ and go back uitm safely.

from left : fazi, fifie, wirda, emy, me.

before goin out

me + jacob = <3

at xiezidian(shoes shop)

count how much smurfs in there!

amboi wirda posing kemain lagi. hahaha!

p/s: i'm not sure what i'm doing now? fooling people feelings? what i've done?!! TT^TT

snap!

2011-12-03T23:28:00.001-08:00

yesterday going out dinner with my ex-roomates(awatif, aliah, sikin, edd) and new person.ika(roomate awatif and aliah)
some pictures was taken using edd's new phone! wooot wooot!

~~uhuk2! sorry it's all my pictures. hahahaha~~!!! xD

true

2011-12-02T08:29:00.001-08:00

love

2011-12-02T08:04:00.001-08:00

cool isnt it? joowon! <3

who?

2011-11-28T02:57:00.001-08:00

Quiz Time~

Pick five music artists that you love before reading the questions.

1. BIGBANG

2. THE GAZETTE

3. LINKIN PARK

4. Super Junior

5. Boyfriend

What was the first song you ever heard by 1?

- Lies

What is your favorite song of 5?

- Boyfriend. haha! it's their debut

What kind of impact has 1 left on your life?

they thought me that rap isnt all about nonsense. it can tell us stories. personalities come from different peoples and from their each different attitudes.. they made a perfection. they also teach me how mean people can be but your trying your best.

What are your favorite lyrics of 2?

hello, my dear, kill me gently-burial applicant

How many times have you seen 4 live?

- ONCE! haha!

What is your favorite song by 1?

- Haru Haru(day by day)

Is there any song by 3 that makes you sad?

- shadow of the day

When did you first get into 2?

- when i'm 14. :D

What is your favorite song by 4?

- no other.

What is a good memory concerning 1?

-yah so many lah~ i'm watch how they debut~

Is there a song by 2 that makes you sad?

-distress and coma

What is your favorite song of 3?

- Lying from you.

me too

2011-11-27T10:21:00.001-08:00

smile!

2011-11-27T10:17:00.001-08:00

this one will going to facebook, smile! :D

click away

2011-11-27T09:25:00.001-08:00

alamak kaki kebas pulak.

hi bloggie-chan.
i dont know what to post actually..
hurm. let me think.
ouh!
i forgot again.
HAHA! bye2!

play

2011-11-24T08:01:00.001-08:00

hey bloggie-chan
how are you? must be missing me too much!!
hahahahahahaha!!
sorry for not telling you what happen for the last few months
maybe i'm too lazy to type
hahahah!

i tell you what happen now.
:D
i'm just starting new sem. semester 4 right now! woah!! cool isnt it?
feels like senior but not likely. hoho
and new room. 2 new roomates(naf and sue) and 1 old roomate(lieow)
so.. it's kinda kekok right here. hahaa!!
and supprisingly
the class started at my 19th birthday
emy was the first one who sang and wish me birthday
and then goes my father, my ex-roommates, tuuuut tuuuut...
THANK YOU FOR ALL YOUR WISHES! <3
thanks to emy for giving me domo plushies!! XD i can hug2!! <3 love love
ilyas for the chocolates. <3
sara and fatin for the wishing box, <3
ain for the guitar necklace and bracelet <3
wirda si pokok for LOOOTTSSSS of CANDDIEESSS!! <3
and for the future givers... i'm still waiting as you promised. :D
dan akan kelim jika x diberi
terutama meg dan maggi!!

HAHAHAHAHAHA!!
and also... hoping that... ok. enough
i promised myself i will not say it even my heart still wants to memberontak like
'kau jgn lah nak tipu diri kau!', 'bru kau tau skrg faz'
and i will always fight like this
'i will forgive for my each mistakes and i wont repeat the same one'
'this is my decision i made and no turning back'
'i am in phase of learning.. it's ok to made mistakes'

but now.. it's not me who matters
i feel sorry for emy
i'm scared that she will getting bored around me
i know how much she care about me.
maybe i'm also too scare facing the reality
i cannot give what she wanted
although that she will said that 'tapelah faz.. aku x kisah lah'
'kau ok x faz?'
i know she meant all her words..
but still.. things are'nt always go our way..
it will not happen like before anymore.
and dont worry about me.
just do what you like and have fun. :D
i'm happy looking at your happy chubby face!
HAHAHAHAHAH!!

LASTLY
maybe all the thing i said.. i'm ok, i'm cool. will definitely changing the whole time
hahahaha. human is imperfect especially me.. hhahaa!
who would known what happen in future and only Allah does.
i'm lucky he still loves me. :)

replay

2011-11-24T07:47:00.001-08:00

RULES:
> Put iTunes, Windows Media Player, etc. on shuffle.
> For each question, press the "next" button to get your answer.
> YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN, NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS.
> Tag 20 friends (make me #21 so I can see your results).
> Everyone tagged has to do the same thing.
> Have Fun!

1. IF SOMEONE SAYS 'ARE YOU OKAY' YOU SAY?
oh yeah

2. HOW WOULD YOU DESCRIBE YOURSELF?
u

3. WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?
love pains

4. HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
iridescent

5. WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE?
jar of hearts

6. WHAT'S YOUR MOTTO?
boyfriend

7. WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
you belong with me

8. WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?

beautiful soul

9. WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?
oh mom

10. WHAT IS 2 + 2?
heart to heart

11. WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND?
marry u

12. WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
0330

13. WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
do you know that

14. WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
ayam

15. WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?
count on me

16. WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
heartbreaker

17. WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?
numb

18. WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST FEAR?
superman

19. WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST SECRET?
yes

20. WHAT DO YOU WANT RIGHT NOW?
teenagers

21. WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
o.k.

22. WHAT WILL YOU POST THIS AS?

bila rindu

semester break

2011-10-17T00:26:00.000-07:00

i should enjoy this holidays
hang out with my besties
having chat, laugh together
teasing one another
talk about the past
sharing many thing together
play together
watch movies. eat. make fun

but it's only just a dream come true when just meeting them
gyaa~ i love looking their bright cheerful faces! :)

eventhough i didnt make it to meet all of them. *cis
but it's ok. :D
just want to let you guys know
i miss you guys a lot
we will go karaoke as soon as i get back!
i will contact you guys!

ouh! betape mengantuknya muka aku. hahaha! xDD

emy
i really looking forward meeting you
excited
truly are!
i'm planning where to take you, make a schedule, make plans
watching movies!
eat!
but unfortunately
things happen without we planned it to be.
i'm sorry yah doraemon
*tulah suro kuarkan alat tolong aku x nak. hahahaha!* joke2!
:)
i will contact you too as soon as i get back
missing you a lot! TT^TT

too little time yet too many things to done
hoh! and finally
i've said the truth
i'm sorry
and actually i dont understand what you are thinking
you really are a good person
i'm hoping that you will say the truth too. so, i can understand myself
YEAH!

ouh yeah!
it's time for me to go back
:)
gonna miss you guys more. TT^TT

WANTTT!!!

2011-10-03T09:15:00.001-07:00

ME WANT THAT AIS CREAM SOO MUCCHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
WANT WANT WANT!! I DONT CARE!!!! I WANT THATTT!!!!

kyu-line

2011-10-03T00:31:00.000-07:00

<3 <3 <3
minho! kyuhyun!!
MWAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAA!!!!!!!
ok lah.. changmin too..

since when?

2011-10-02T05:05:00.000-07:00

i'm not become myself

i become much more violent

become lazy

just not me

gyaaaa~

eat.

2011-09-29T03:17:00.000-07:00

bloggie-chan!
because i got back home
so, mak and ibu a bit excited
mak cooked my favourite food andddddd ibu brought back nasi dagang and briyani for me
and i'm FULL!
my stomach was about to pop right now.
urghhh~
but.. thanks for the food. :)
alhamdulillah.

sarcasm

2011-09-27T23:47:00.000-07:00

yesterday was my statistic paper and i feel like wanna buy a rope
tie it at fan and tie it around my neck
like that feeling
some of my friends were crying after the test
as for me.. i'm having my stomachache in the middle of the exam and my brain stop working
thanks thanks thanks
i cant answer correctly.
aigoo~ TT^TT
and after the test i termenung and went my room and have a sleep
hoping that all my worries go away
woooo~~

ok! after having a nice sleep
my roomates awatif, aliah, sikin, maisarah, adila, suraya and me! (ika not following us)
going to seoul garden and have a feast together2!!
it's such a looooonggg time we have'nt eat together.. i mean roomates only! *without boys*
it's kinda cool. :D
BUT!
haahaaa~ the best part! although we've been together like 1 and a half year. we're not that close.
and something happen quite... sakit hati
but it's ok lah.. everything going just fine. :D
the key is : if we know somebody close, we know what she or he facing with.. we should help her/him. dont think about yourself. think about other people feelings too. come on lah.. dah 1 tahun lebih da. x kan x knal? :)
EAT EAT EAT!!

and yesterday, some of us went home already leaving me, awatif and ika
and also pika and kak say staying at our room yesterday. thanks! :D
me and awatif watched 2 and a half movies together. street fighter(AWESOME), 28 weeks later(i want to pukul2 that Andy) and the priest
and then we sleep

so TODAY!
for the first time! i went home by bus and straight to tbs
YOU KNOW WHAT TBS?
terminal bersepadu selatan.. awesome x? HAHAHAH~
luckily awatif always with me. :D
but after we've seperated at tbs
i go with my own way and my own steps
starts my journey!
ok. me together with my roller baggie as my company
my hope
my guardian
and my trouble maker as well
walkwalkwalk at the bridge, reading the signboard, hoo~ what a hard life
then there is mat salleh walking much faster, carrying many bags than me and know better that place than me
what a shame
i am malaysian and i dont know way to back home
what a shame what a shame
and i fell with my own roller bag
what a shame what a shame what a shame!!!!!!!!!!
and there's also peoples who dont know how to stay away from other! people life
keep disturbing, staring, following
gyah! i hate when come at that part!
next time i walk alone i want to hang a signboard
'STAY AWAY AND DONT DISTURB'
-____-'

and right now i'm at hospital waiting my turn for medical check up
hye tummy, say hello to doctor goh!
he missed you..
aigoooo~ lazylazy me.. :<

final is killing me

2011-09-25T10:41:00.000-07:00

ok
it's been 3 papers passed away like hell
and every time i think about my last papers and coming soon papers
i will sing 'cinta ini membunuhku' but instead of that.. 'i've changed it to (subjects) ini membunuhku
like ctu ini membunuhku..
and coming more.. statistic ini membunuhku~
ok.. enough with merepek
i'm really frustrated with all final papers this sem..
TT^TT

ok
and 1 more thing
i studied last minute
i dont know why i'm so lazy this sem
maybe i'm tired doing soo many assignments and thought that this final like a break for me
i'm stressed looking at all my roomates study like.. WOW!!
why dont i be like them..
when i said to them like this
me : waaah.. korg ni rajin sgt.. takut aku tgk.
them : kitorg x cam fa, pandai..
me : pandai apenye. aku start blaja lagi.. korg da nak abes study bace dah..
them : eleh fa, x bace konon. tp pointer tuuut~

ok! seriously.. i hate when they said like that
it's not that i'll always get that result like forever!
i'm not that awesome! it's frustrating when people starts talk about my pointer
like want to punch their face and run.
and it's really really make me down.. :<
i dont tell lies.
haih.. ~_~'

abah, emak, abang.. saya minta maaf.. TT^TT

i found the picture of me 18 years ago!! HAHAHAHA~ hye faziana in past!

haih~

2011-09-20T02:27:00.001-07:00

actually what do you expect from me huh?
i just dont understand
straight forward please.
it's confusing me

it's a one big step!

2011-09-15T07:23:00.000-07:00

i'm going to be back on track sooner than you think.
thanks and sorry emy..
i wish i never take your another best friend
now it's only you and me.. i trust you 100% with all my heart..
i'm hanging only to you now.
thaaaankkkssss!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
hohohohoho~ ^0^

dean's list!

2011-09-14T11:06:00.000-07:00

heyya bloggie-chan! i got some news for you! today i've got my dean's award!
it's kinda awkward.
hahahaha!! but alhamdulillah.. :)
i'm excited and sleepy at the same time!
woohooo~
i hope this semester would be much better result!
although it's tough this semester.. but i will try to! i want to! i really really want to!
i hope i've got scholarships and attend to oversea university to gain my knowledge and experiences too!

hopefully all my dreams will come true and be a child who parents always be proud of. :D
but.. mak does'nt really care when i got this award and showed to her excitedly but her respond.. 'kwn2 kau dpt dekan gak ke? ni dpt dekan x? sume dapat dekan x?'
aigoo~ she should ask me first!!! but it's ok lah..:D
i want to get scholarships! my new dream is study abroad!
amin!
never thought that this kid will have the capability to do that?
think again! and WATCH ME! hahahahahahaha!
ok. enough with bangge diri..

before final.. i hope that i could settle all my problems..
i give the answers that i know i will hurt
the answer that you always wanted to know
enough with all the lies, explanations and all excuses
although i want to run from this problem SOOO much
i hardly decide and let go both..
and i know that later we wont be close like before
i have to face it all sooner or later
i'm sorry
i should not talk the truth because i know i hurt myself back
but, with all the lies that i've hid.. you will hurt more in future and i dont want all that to happen
i wont let it
i'm not kind of girl and i'm not like other too..
it may be disappointing for a moment.

and I!
i'm going to be strong! it still a long journey for me!
i have many things to do! and i'm going to be a loyal child.
i dont want to betray my parents trust to me
YEAH FAZ! you are a good girl dont you? :D
huik2!! final is around the corner! stop messing around again ok! :DD
YEAHHH!! FIGHTING FIGHTING!!!! xDD
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA~

BOW TO THE KING CAT!! HOHOHOHO~ ^0^

be strong

2011-09-14T07:01:00.000-07:00

it maybe a little bit heartbroken..

you get what is the best for you

but unfortunately, you have to let go all that things

and pray for what is better for you in future

i believe you've made a best decision

all this things have being planned by Allah SWT

little more

2011-09-12T07:56:00.000-07:00

good day bloggie-chan!!

how wow you?

haaa~ today i'm having macroeconomics test and listening test(mandarin)

it's ok

ok!! final will coming sooner than i thought

i think that i just enter and be part of part 3 students

next sem i'm going to be part 4 student!

woaahhh?? cool isn't it? :)

ok! back to the story

FINAL FINAL FINAL!!!

i'm so scared because i'm busy with assignments and forgot to study

>__< how was it??

i dont know!!

GYAAAA!! bloggie-chan! pray for me k?

picture taken after meeting biscom

emy+me

raya with classmates!

2011-09-11T03:20:00.000-07:00

it was fun fun fun!!
xD
last friday my classmates and i went to raya to several of classmates houses and also 1 of lecturer! :3
from uitm>aidil's>ilyas's>puan intan's>ain's>mirwan's>yana's>Mahkota Parade!
it was enjoyable and i feel much comfortable with my classmates.
and alsoo very tiring.. haihh~ haih~ haih~
these are some pictures taken.. :D

beraya beraya and sleep also..
:D
after done with beraya.. we went to mahkota parade and karaoke-ing!
AWESOME!!
dancing2 and singing! it was enjoyable!
xDD
HAHAHAHAHAHA!! hope that we could making class event more merrier!
hohohoho~ ^0^

and yesterday, i meant saturday
me, emy, fatin and sara went out to jusco to eat lunch
buuuttt~ da terpesong tempat lain..
we went to gsc and watch spykids.
WOHOHO~ IT WAS AWESOME!!!
juni~ juni~ he still here in spykids! but he'd grew and become teenager
and also his sister, Carmen.. wahhh~ she was amazing! very beautiful and different from her child face
i like her! WOOOT WOOT~

because

2011-09-10T10:22:00.001-07:00

i dont care anymore..

Dinner de'best

2011-09-10T10:16:00.000-07:00

laaaaaasssttttt wednesday
we(the business studies) students had dinner at Avillion Legacy Hotel
it was fun gather around with my classmates, roomates, seniors, juniors (although i'm not talking too much)
BUT OVERALL
it's fun.. :)
thanks to emy for forcing me to makeup and do my hair
and thanks to wawa for make me up.. :D

me and some of my classmates who attended dinner. from left, emy sarah, fatin, putri, farah, ain and ash

me with my roomate partner. AWATIF FATIHAH. selamat hari raya.. hahahaha!!

my roomates+siblings : kaklang(awatif), kakcik(me), kakngah(aliah) and kaklong(sikin)

roomates and.. pak lebai..hahahaha!! from left, edd, sikin, suraya, maisarah, awatif, me, aliah and that pak lebai is adil(menyemak je) ish! HAHAHAHA! xDD

me+sikin. :)

Aliah, Shukor, Sauffy, me and Awatif

ME+EMY.. WOHOHO~

Raja Kucing yg terhormat pergi dinner ni! HAHAHAHA!!

CLASSMATES. :)

Ain :)

MT de'best, MAIRA aka my classmate too.. KAWAII ne? XDD

mabuk2.. HAHAHA~

:D hye there!

pray

2011-09-08T10:34:00.000-07:00

although i feel the pain
but i pray to Allah SWT that i can keep calm and happy
strong and healthy
hope that he will cure my heart
and keeping me under his watch all the time
:)
i know he planned better future for me..
amin..

raya!

2011-09-02T07:30:00.000-07:00

RAYAAA!! RAYAAAA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i like to move it move it!
today, actually i want to go out by myself..
but but but...
suddenly, tergerak pulak hati want to meet my partners in crime..
so, i've called sue, lulu and fiza since meg is not aroundddd~~ TT^TT miss her
when i called sue, actually three of them going out eat pizza without me..
CIS!! i wont miss a chance!
so, i've asked them out to accompany me buy things.. :)
yah!! i've bought 2 jeans!! TT^TT money money money...
thanks to fiza coz treat me.. RM12.. WOHOHOHOHOHOHO!! although it was the first time we've met..
but it's like we've known for years..
HAHAHAHAHAHA!!!
AND ALSO!!
three of them didnt miss chance to bully me.. :<
dont harm me.. ~_~'

okay, i spent so much money.. now it's time to put it back in my accounts.. :'(

the truth

2011-09-01T07:58:00.001-07:00

it's gonna be close..
and i'm actually afraid. so afraid..
>___<

raya

2011-08-31T07:38:00.000-07:00

have fun guys. :)

wish you've had niiiiiiceeee raya celebration and have a happy holiday

tell you

2011-08-27T10:56:00.000-07:00

haaaaaa~

i dont know!

i'm confused!!!

how awesome people could be

2011-08-23T11:31:00.000-07:00

i dont know what is matter with people these days

today they said like this, tomorrow they change their mind

i'm so fed-up with all things that keep messing my small brain

why should i think about it from the start

with all the assignments!! sh*t!

i'm just so fed-up and sometimes i feel like dont want to talk at all

maybe next time i wont mess-up and bother other again

so i wont hurt anyone and myself again!

i missed my old friends a loot today..

:'(

bye.

the way i am

2011-08-21T09:43:00.000-07:00

hey bloggie-chan

i've about to recover back from my cough+flu+fever

YEAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAYYYYYYYYYYYYYY!

ok, i'll tell you what happen last few weeks and also, these few days

first of all

the one who always you've trusted who actually a fiction

mitos

ok, it's my fault for always thinking good about other people

i'm also avoid to stay away from any problems with friends

although i trying so hard not to believe in what other people say about the person i called 'friend'

but actually, it's coming from his/her mouth

sometimes i said to myself all the bad things are not true.. until i see it with my own eyes and i hear it myself

at last, the one who i've trusted.. is the one who actually despise me

the one who i back up the most, is the person who actually using me all time long

i just dont get it.. it's hurt because it is the person who i've trusted..

now, it's like vanished and gone like the wind

me and myself

ok, i'm not a great communicator, i dont know how to attract people, i dont know how to make friends, it's true i'm not talkative like others. i admit that i cant start conversation. I'M NOT THAT KIND OF PERSON! i've tried to change but it's not me. feels awkward and... i'm afraid i've might hurt their feelings. i've used to be alone.. my father thought me that. he said that

'you cannot friend with this kind of person, that kind of person'

'you cannot friend with boys'

'that person is not good, you should not approach him/her'

'who's that person you friend with? she looks like a boy'

'dont you ever have boyfriend! if you've been caught, you'll see what happen next!'

'you've must learned these from your friends, stop acting this way!'

i've been scolded, my friends was the one who to be blamed.

i hate when abah said bad things about my friends who is actually innocent at all.

so, sometimes i've advice my friends if they see me with my father, ignore me.

i dont mean to be rude, i just dont want you get hurt

so.. because of these, i'm scared

i just want to be a good girl who follow whatever my father told me to

i just dont know how to explain this to others

i wish they could understand me,

it's the way i am.. i've been taught to behave like that.

some of them said that i should change it

some of them said that you should be who you are

i'm confused but in the end.. i just hope people will treat me and accept the truly me.

hoh~

satisfied!

fuuuuuuhhhh~

xDD

it's time to laugh!

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!!

AND SING!!!

I DONT CARE EA EA EA EA EAH~

i dont care ea ea ea ea eahh!

that person

2011-08-16T22:07:00.000-07:00

bloggie-chan..

i'm not feel very well these few weeks

my chest hurts

coughing+flu+fever+soar throat

haiyooo~

do me a favor k.. :)

faz!! get well soon!!! YOSH2!!!!

i fall at last

2011-08-10T07:55:00.000-07:00

hey bloggie-chan

yesterday i didnt get enough sleep

so, just for your information, i just fell from my scooter

haih~

after had class economy at block b, i want to go library because i promise my friend to teach him statistics

then, i drive my bike from block b and about to reach library

then...

POP!

i knocked out! and realized that i fell from my bike, and it hempap me..

luckily my classmates were there and they help me

i got some bruises and also my right side mirror were broke..

it is the first time i fell from that bike..

and i'm not worry about that myself at all.. scooter is more important..

i cried because of that

i'm so tired now..

got to rest myself today!

BYE!

:DD

feels like..

2011-08-05T09:08:00.001-07:00

i wanna runnnn!!!

run freely non-stop

without the hot weather and no sweat

i just wanna run freely..

3/8/2011

2011-08-03T06:22:00.000-07:00

hey bloggie-chan

it's been a hard 2 daaay for me

yesterday was...mock meetingg... like i want to kill myself.. what the heck am i talk about..

and i fell just because wearing high heels.. it is just like sh*t!

my joowon become much worsen..

i just dont know what to do

i feel like being a jerk

during last weekends i have to stay hostel alone

haih~ i dont care being alone, *scared actually*

but i dont feel like sleeping in someone room

it's weird

so, arond 4.30-6.30 am i get back to my hostel and sleep in my room

feel much much better!

not because i dont like.. it because i cant suit myself..

hahahahahaha!!!!

ok back to academic story

test macroeconomic was baaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaadddd enough

quiz statistics was like... i'm going to torn that paper

quiz mandarin tomorrow? oh my! and another 1... have to present about myself

YAH!!! TOMORROW QUIZ TENNIS!!

i did not read anything.. >___<

haaaaa~

i feel like want to wave white flag and surrender

TT^TT

it's totally a moody week..

lepas satu2 menimpa.. pas ni apa lah pulak..

dyyiiiinnnggg

2011-08-01T02:32:00.000-07:00

hey bloggie-chan

first of all..

SELAMAT MENYAMBUT RAMADHAN AL-MUBARAK!

i'm happy! :D it's cool! i can go terawih after done my mountains of assignments!

*if that possible*

i want to apologize for those who wishes me.. but i did not replied back.. this is because my credit wont allowed me to.. HAHA

but i totally appreciate it.. at least i'm on your mind. YEAH!

XDD

yesterday was the last day to eat in the morning till evening

so, emy, ayep and me decide to eat kfc + do our mgt assignment!! it's been soo long i did not eat chicken!

waahh~ the smell of chicken was just like! HEAVENN~

firstly we went to alor gajah, but there's soo many people!

my saliva was about to coming out when seeing and smelling that chicken

after that, we've decided to go to kfc masjid tanah hoping that it's not crowded like this..

but... CROWDED gile..

dah lah plug x de nak cucuk laptop.. -___-'

tapi makan tetap makan.. HAHAHAHAHAA!

then suddenly lulu text me said that she's at mitc, melaka..

I REALLY WANT TO GO SEE HER SO DAMN MUCH!!

it's been forever

but unfortunately.. we cant make it.. :'(

it's too little time to reach mitc.

+assignments byk x siap lg..

haih~ ape la nak jd ni..

feel upset and nak guling2

ouh..

yesterday while waiting for sikin's phone battery full

i've chat with emy

i've told her what's wrong with me, my attitude and i feel guilty

when i sleeping in the car after crying and bad mooding

she told me that what she's done

she went to tesco cheng by herself to ask people to repair my joowon

it is the first time she felt being matured

arief noor si benak ni pon.. trying to find solutions to cheer me up.. taking good care of me, make sure that we're always ok

although been blame for spend so much time with me rather than your own housemate

emy said that she will also drag herself for this matter.. but i still blame myself

i'm worried..

if i know at the first place it's going to be this way.. i wont do that!

although joowon become much worse

but.. nothing can compare with you guys more..

both of you guys done much!

i know this is not enough

i know that people will blaming me

i know i'm so selfish and childish

i know that by say 'thank you' and 'sorry' wont be enough..

i just dont know how to say more..

kim joo won

2011-07-30T08:56:00.000-07:00

hey bloggie-chan

today is the MOST MOST MOST DOWN day in my life

my joowon, my love

i dont know what happen to him

seeing him broken... feels like my heart were torn into pieces

i feel like want to.. blame myself

OH HELL YEAH! I'M BLAMING MYSELF FOR BROKEN IT

i cried, i dont want to talk, i just want to go back

i remember each moments with my joowon

i love joowon soo much

i've being spoiling my joowon

now, i broke him

my heart was like.. a breaking glass

i just dont know how to talk my sadness and down each everytime i look at him

he just so perfect and now....

what did i've done!!!! TT^TT

faz, seriously you are an idiot!

idiot! idiot! idiot!!

i was so down until i cant speak anything

i just wish everything going backward

i want to say sorry but i dont know to whom

all i did is cried and sleep

but.. thanks to emy and ayep

they trying their best to cheer me up

emy bought me 2 ice creams! it's really cheerin me up! i'm going to pay you back.. sorry for troubling you emy, thanks for everything you've done! you've done so much!

ayep bought us keychains and i dont know how to say thanks or sorry to him

both of them... just so.. kind heart persons!

i know i'm just a troublesome for you guys

making you guys tired, annoyed with my childish attitude

i'm so sorry.. >___<"

but seriously! I REALLY appreciate it!

although i cannot repair my phone for some time

it's the saddest part

but you guys are the best part of mine.. :) thanks!

clumsy

2011-07-28T08:57:00.000-07:00

left my key, my motorcycle key

my key my key that means everything!

faziana faizal, i really want to scold you right now!!

how can you be this stupid!!!!

my matric card!

FAZIANA!! YOU TOTALLY AN IDIOT!

yaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhh

i feel like want to punch myself right now!

when the soul was taken

2011-07-28T07:20:00.000-07:00

hi there bloggie-chan

actually

sometimes i wish for a better life

better person

better in everything

but it's only just a wish

i wish i have a person who always be there for me

hear all my nonsense

know how much i like something or how much i hate them

understand so much my feelings

when i'm happy that person will love how i feel

even when i'm sad, i wish that person will cheer me up and always find ways

that person who will always look out for me and know how clumsy i am in every way

give me shoulder to cry on and wipe away my tears

the person who will give me courage and like me the way i am

i'm not saying i want a boyfriend or anyone.. i just want that kind of person

but luckily i have someone who always love me.. ALLAH S.W.T

in every day i cry, i feel he hear my tears

in everyday i talk, he will listen each words come out from me

in everyday i smile, he will smiling back at me

in everyday i pray, he always make my wish comes true

i love Allah S.W.T

my mom always said

it's ok if when you struggling in your life

it's mean that Allah s.w.t never forget you

i hope that my happy days will come..

i waiting for that each days..

bye bloggie-chan.. :)

confident

2011-07-24T07:51:00.000-07:00

confident?

is it the best way?

or sometimes people said it confidently to show how charismatic there are

but why others said it is arrogant?

i dont know

you decide

haih~

tomorrow the class start!

aigoo~

ha~ my foot..

i stepped a plug and cis!

sakitnya!

>___<

k bye! :DD

i just dont realize

2011-07-23T07:21:00.000-07:00

hey hey hey

i'm so blur right now

i dont know what i'm going to do now

hooo~

k bye

hey kiddo!

2011-07-21T09:23:00.000-07:00

this pussy cat!
i've used to named it kyuhyun when he was little kiddy cat
but my father changed it to kiddo since kyuhyun is really hard to pronounce..
HAHA!
SAY HI TO KIDDO!

why

2011-07-15T07:50:00.000-07:00

*the picture is not related with the post.. some of it may have.. i just miss them!*

woh!

bloggie-chan

i want to tell you about yesterday..

i meet meg!

wohohoho~

we having chat and we share something common..

i tell her about my life in here and differences then school

she told me about her life too..

it's such a relieved

although we are the kind of person who others looking like 'someone odd'

but actually we are'nt the special one

the other person is..

feel being used or be friend because of the second person who actually the special one in everybody eyes..

second part..

next time i'll story more..

i'm tired and want to sleep..

bye2!

goodnite bloggie-chan!

annyong! ^^

i hate test!

2011-07-14T22:26:00.000-07:00

yaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhh

the same feeling from the last 2 sems when accounts test!

i hate it! hate it!

i hate test! i wanna to kill that paper if it alive!

i want to koyak2kan smpai hancur2!!!

I HATE YOU SO MUCH!!!

faz, it's ok.. do it better next time.. *patting myself*

huuuu~ TT^TT

the reason i smile

2011-07-11T08:48:00.000-07:00

hey bloggie-chan

today i actually not in good circumstance

start from early class.. look at my classmates expressions..

i know today was not a good day

i'm so lazy to talk.. but i continue to say sorry and smile

i feel like want to slap each of my friend faces and woke them up from their dreams..

each and one of them!

haiyoh!

i call my abah..

and it's decided that i'm going to go back to puchong

and hard to see my mom

dont worry mom! i'm going home sooner! :)

and i call my grandma coz i heard she's not feeling well..

i'm so worried

then, when i start to talk with my grandma..

i hear her weak voices and crying that she's not feeling well

i tried to cheer her up

gives her courage

'nenek! nnt adk ballik.. nnt tunggu adk, kuatkan semangat tau nenek'

i've ask my mama why they dont want to bring nenek to hospital and treat her over there

then, mama said that they already ask nenek.. but she refused to..

she said she wanted to die in her own house..

please dont say like that..

so.. i've decided on thursday after koko.. i'll go home sneakily just to see my nenek

even just for a minute.. i just want to see her doing well..

and on friday morning, i'll be back to melaka as soon as possible..

i'm so worried because i dont know how to ride bus.. =_='

how to buy ticket bus..

haiyoh!

bloggie-chan! pray for me so that i'll back to kl, and melaka back safely!

i hope i will be just fine!

amin!

p/s : the reason i smile because to give they courage and happiness.. but yet, i'm lost it myself.. but i'm grateful having great friends who will be besides me all the time. 0(^-^)o

faz! you can do it! yeah!!!

dear mr. h

2011-07-10T01:26:00.000-07:00

happy birthday.. saranghae heechul <3

thumbs up

2011-07-09T06:05:00.000-07:00

hey bloggie-chan!

look what i brought?

picturess!! yah! you must really want to see it right? hahahaha!

it's was taken yesterday and almost all the pictures are credited to Mohd Arief Noor Zamanhuri

thanks!

ok! last start it!

yossh!!

as i said before, we watched TRANSFORMER :the dark of moon

looong waited movie and it's really worth it!

we arrived at dataran pahlawan around 3.30 pm

then buy ticket at 6.00 pm

so, we decided to eat!

walllkkkk walkk~ after searching for food.. and lastly, we ate at station kopitiam..

accidently found maisarah madeonus(roomate) at a restaurant besides our restaurant..

haha! i've tried to hide because i'm shy.. hahaha!

at that restaurant we watch tom and jerry! very funny! me like it! xDD

after that.. we went for a walk..

we go down to that dataran.. and took pictures! of course lah me and emy! HAHAHA

TADAAA!!!

grumpy wannabe!

4-ple peaces! :DD

unique posing and camera angle are'nt it? HAHA!

then.. after that.. we dont know what to do..

we've decided to climb to a famosa..

visit world heritage.. :D

at the big entrance

FIRE!!!!!!!!!!!!!

behind there(the scenery) it was dp!

in front of a statue

highest part of the building

nice scenery.. you can see sea over there.. :D

climb up! and take pictures!

nice isnt it?

me with ayep.. *pfft! look at him.. hahaha!!* mcm panggil org jenjalan tgkp gambar same2..

hahaha! k.. sorry! xDD it just so funny!

emy looks really like a foreigner isnt she? :DD

ayep+emy in front of the tomb :D

another entry of the building! peace!

and after that.. we walk down bacckk!

and look what we found!

old trains!!!

cool isnt it? hahahaha!! xDD

in front of antique car!

after enough taking pictures.. we take a rest..

we sat at the bench

look at a bride and bridegroom taking pictures in front of us..

look at people around

talk talk talk..

and after that we enter back to dp..

buy my fav popcorn!!!! WOHOHOHOHO!! ME LIKE IT SO MUCH!

and take our seat in the cinema

it's 3D! TRANSFORMER!

before the show wearing 3D glass and POPCORN!!! <3

and the show start

me+emy ate popcorn together!

and emy stopped but i continue eating popcorn for 2 hours non stop!

sorry k benak!

HAHAHAHA!

i really really like it! xDD

that movie was really satisfied me although it's very looong movie!

but it's worth it! HOHO!

then after that..

we go back to lendu safely..

note: although we're having fun.. but actually i prefer amir and ain could join us too.. it's more.. complete.. thanks emy for taking care of me all the time! <3 we always mistaken as siblings.. HAHA! thanks benak for bringing us! although we always have fight, i hate your advises and critics! i hate when you always want to win in everything (it's annoying), i hate when you always want to force me things i dont wanna hear! HUMPH! but anyway.. thanks for everything! you've done a loott!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! thank you!!

let's roll

2011-07-08T08:11:00.000-07:00

guess what!

i watched TRANSFORMERS AT LASSTTTTTTTT!!!

with emy and ayep

the movie that i've waited..

i really really satisfied! *MWOHOHOHOHOO!!

that bumblebee! optimus prime! ironhead!

the actions was AWESOME!

but the starting was quite boring..

anyway! it's JUST AWESOME!!

GREAT MOVIE!

ho~

before the movie start

we ate at a restaurant.. i forgot what it's name..

watch tom and jerry *very funny* HAHA!

we went to a famosa.. climb over there.. take pictures..

it's cool..

then go back to lendu

scooot

2011-07-04T09:08:00.000-07:00

hey bloggie-chan!

i brought my scooter.. actually it's not mine.. it's my dad's

hahahaha!

that elegan scooter was such a heavy..

my mom called me and she laughing non stop while imaging me on that bike..

=___=' *mom~ you should not do that*

actually, it's hard for the first timer like me.. :/

kinda.. awkward and not used to it..

i'm afraid that bike will fall.. i dont mind if i am.. that bike is more important that my life!

hoo!

today amir coming to melaka!

plan to watch transformer together.

but.. the show start at 9 pm.. TT^TT

i really want to watch that movie so damn muchhh!!!!

it's a long timmeeee i wait for this movie! and i cannot see it! IT'S REALLY UPSETTING+DEPRESSING+TENSION!

with that benak guy keep mumbling.. it's making me more down..

myyyyyyy moovvvviiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiieeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

this is all because of that scooter i left near library.. >__<

i'm so worried.. i'm scared..

something would happen to it

rather than i spend enjoying that movie

or getting killed by abah for something might happen to his scooter

i dont wanna risk my life just because of that scooter...

it's ok faz.. next time ok...

next time amir will bring you and others again watching awesome movie! HARRY POTTER K!

dont cry..

*wooooooooooooooooo~*

the best part

2011-06-29T08:55:00.000-07:00

it's really weird these days for me..

but i dont know why i find it soo funny..

sorry! xDD

it's ok.. i'm going to treat people as usual because i found it too funny..

hahahah!!

*kejamnya kau faz.. chkchkchkchk!

no lah..

everything will be going jusssttt fiiinneeeeeeee

even without my papa.. :'(

goodbye

2011-06-28T10:49:00.000-07:00

seriously!

i'll be missing you.. TT^TT

amir izzat! PAPA!! goodluck in your life and future.. we'll be missing you a looot!!

dont forget us k!! TT^TT

beauty boys

2011-06-25T10:11:00.000-07:00

i noticed that heechul is a beauty..

i just realized that leeteuk can be WOW! he really looks like a woman.. with nice body too!

xDD hahahahaha!

it's how i lived

2011-06-21T04:39:00.000-07:00

hey bloggie-chan..

this week surely are busy week for me..

since last saturday i think i keep on reading

articles, journals, statistics, economy, books.. lalala~

it's looks like those things and time chasing me all the way and i could not keep up with it.

hoo~

my eyes spinning round and round

now i understand why the lecturers 'chop' business students as ulat buku..

i think i'm also one of them but the lazier one with empty minded..

all the knowledge seems to bouncing in my head like a ball..

sometimes i know, sometimes i blur.. *a lot of them i blur*

gyaboo~ i'm so tired.. i have'nt had such a nice sleep..

my body start to itchy dont know why

ha.. things are not going better these recent days..

i just dont know how to solve my own problem

think about death is sometimes my only left choice do i have last

give supports and courage to other can make me weaker myself

i lost my courage.. my strength..

i hope i could keep up my life..

FIGHTING!!! :DD

abah

2011-06-18T21:36:00.001-07:00

meet my abah and his photostat.. hahaha!

hey abah.. i know i'm still not good enough for you..

i'm not a perfect daughter you always wanted

i am not always there when you needed me.

although there is so much thing you've done to me

the one and only person that can make me cried

the one and only person that hurt me the most

i know it just a lesson for me, for my life and and for my future..

i just have to be strong now and always!

look at me now abah..

i'm not matured am i? i'm still a kid that never changed although you scold me soo many time to become more matured..

i am the kid that always making excuses

i am the kid who you hanging higghhh hope

but because of that..

you never denied that i'm your 'baby besar abah'

hahaha

although you do not put your fully trust to me..

i am the girl who always believe in you..

i am the girl who always listen to you

i am the girl who always pray for your happiness

i am daddy girl who always wish for her dad to change..

turnover

2011-06-14T03:10:00.000-07:00

hey bloggie-chan..

how are you?

i'm not good..

recently i use to go to class LATE!

although waking up early..

there some conversation between me and emy

faz: aku rase kan.. sem ni aku banyak kali lewat.. haish! setelah sekian lama x lari gi kelas... hari ni aku lari gi kelas..

emy : ha? bukan biasa ke kau lewat? lari2 gi kelas sume ni..

faz : ye ke? *pikir* haa... ye lah.. lupe aku.. hahahahahah!

emy : dah biase dah tu faz...

there's a lot of thing i'm confused this days..

firstly!

jengjengjengjeng!

boy become weirder?

-i dont know whaayyyyyy there is some guys acting like girls.. i dont mean that wear like girls..but the way they talk and behave.. idk.. i never know a boy and he start to act weird and wanna manje2 with girls, gedik2.. although it was the first time we ever talk.. :/ why they becoming so emotional lately? i just say i'm sorry and right now.. i really acted like a guy who pujuk the girl.. =______=' i'm not that kinda of girl who will pujuk2 and i never want to know if you sad with my attitude.. i just dont care.. because.. this is the first time you talk to me.. it's ok to be friend.. just talk like usual you talk to people.. aigooo~ i'm not that kind of girl who love to talk so much and make friend.. is just i love to being with people i know rather than the first timer.. what's wrong with these guys?

second!

everything turning upside down?

whhhaaaaatt's wroooonnnggg??? tell me.. a great friend will stab us at the back? acting nice infront of you but behind they just talk you back? the person that i love become the person who hate me? the person who hate me become good with me? brother become someone else? whaaatt is wroonnggg nooow!!!! i dont understandd

please explain!

what is wrong with this world?

i'm missing too much?

gyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

why am i'm so easy to figure out by someone else?

i just dont knowww who am i and what is this confusing matter..

mission unaccomplished!

-die now! hoohoho

it is cool

2011-06-12T11:18:00.000-07:00

happy wedding abang fizi! :)

from : nana and ayuy

yahhh~ it's good to be back and meet my friends..

totally i feel relieved! :D

i feel i'm catching up my soul back!

hey soul!! come back here to my body as soon as possible!! i wont let you go anywhere!!

I'M CHASING YOU BACK!

yaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!

after met my nenek, my cousins, my relatives i feel so happy..

i wish i could spend some more time with them..

ok enough of that!

now let's see..

hurm..

oh ya! i got present from my mom and brother.. ^^

i bet meg would be jealous.. so i wont tell until i met her by my own.. HAHAHAH!

i'm missing anything?

yah!

i did not make my assignments yet.. of course i wont do it if i come home.. :(

THERE'S SOOOOOOOOOOO MANY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

but i tried to do it tomorrow!

pinky promise!! yosh2!!! *full of energy! huik2!!

hah!

another one!

awatif!!! sorry.. my mother said suddenly she will drive us to uni tomorrow..

i'll pack back your money! i promise!

sorry for making trouble

*since when i'm not*

hontouni! GOMEN!!! >___<

meet my new baby

2011-06-11T07:25:00.000-07:00

hey.. today was fun fun fun!

for succhhhh a looooooooooonnggggggggggggggggggggg time i have not meet them..

at least i meet half of elfs.. :)

meg, lulu and buri..

i love them so damn much.. xDD

i had a blast day today..

karaoke-ing! it's cool!

i miss those days..

and i will miss it today..

i love dancing.. ^^

i think my voice.. aiyoh~ baik x payah nyanyi lah..

but i love i could forget some things that not matter anymore to me.. :)

hahahahaha! xDD

then we went to pertama complex searching for tennis racket..

i thought it's around RM 50-100

but... $$$$$$$$$$$$$ it's all about money money money.. TT^TT

i really wanna cry when know the real price.. wooooohh~ my money....

but since i buy it..

officially i will love him..

my new chagi, my new bf, my new baby and also my new friend..

meet him..

seungri!!

say hi to them seungri-ah..

seungri: annyeong!!! ^^

*sory bad quality.. it's actually red and black.. :)

gyahahahha!! xD

2011-06-09T05:20:00.000-07:00

truly is, i deleted it.. :)

and from now on...

i keep be myself!

hai!

my name is faziana.. call me faz.. :)

i'm eighteen and 7 month right now

i'm still a kid although my age not seems too..

i'm a immature girl

i dont know much about many thing in this world.. so dont talk about complex thing to me

it's hard to understand

i love to imagine and cartoons are best!

i love music and sing and dance along

i dont care if people call me a freak..

i'm getting used to it..

yoroshiku! ^^

what so special being a university student?

first of all.. you have a great friends called books

it will never seperate with you..

you always need it..

second!

all thing done by yourself.. *aigoo~ this is hard one for me

no more food in refrigerator.. you have to walk to find faraway foods..

FOOODDDD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *berlari lari*

as for me..

i dont know how to handle myself

i dunno how to work by my own..

i'm so lazy to move my body..

i hate to communicate

luckily.. there is friends to help me.. as my mother, father, sister, brother, teacher, guidance, and fairy..

i'm very lucky to have them.. :)

more?

you know yourself.. search your own specialties as a student..

ha!

today i'm late going to mandarin class..

almost 20 minutes late(my watch)

then, for such a long time i have not running going to class...

then after greet my senior, i RRRRRRRRUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUNNNNNNNNNNNNNN to my class and spying whether my laoshi have arrive or not..

slowly open the door. and saw there is! my laoshi! miss zhang!

*shy*

hahahahahaha! xDD

then the laoshi and pengyou men ask me to take chair in another class..

i'm so shy..

i knock the door and it is my roomates class..

ta men laoshi smile and greet me well and generously ask me to take the chair..

i have met ta men laoshi before.. and that's why i'm so shy.. hahahahaha! xD

my roomates laugh when look at me..

then i look down.. and go put from the class shyly..

hahahahahahaha!! xDD

waiting

2011-06-03T05:48:00.000-07:00

Where is him?
Promised at 4.30 then 7.30 then still not arrived..
But it's ok..
it's cool.. :DD

hear me

2011-06-02T09:10:00.000-07:00

this is the last chance..

it's no turning back now..

faz.. it's all about your life now..

no need to think nonsense k?

-bloggie-chan

Weeeeee~

2011-06-01T06:29:00.000-07:00

bloggie-chan!

i'm struggling a lot with my life

but i still praying that Allah give me strength to go over it..

everyday in every prayer i keep wishing for a better life..

i think,

it's ok living this life like this..

seriously i even thought of killing myself would be a greater idea..

but after i sleep and thinking what will happen in future..

i realize that all the things happen to me may have reasons

i remember my mom used to said

'susah hidup, dugaan kita ni maknanya Allah masih ingat kat kita, masih sayang kat kita'

i just cried and sleep..

i'm thankful for all of it..

and at the same time..

when i'm lying on my bed

i'm thinking about what my friend ask me

'kalaulah kau dah besar nanti, kau nak balas dendam tak nnt?'

and of course not!!

i wont do that!

but sometimes.. when hate is becoming greater than love

i would say that 'i will'

cruel is'nt it?

cool

2011-06-01T06:22:00.000-07:00

enough of your attitude of being stalker..

you should more enjoy with study and your friends now..

stop tearing yourself

sometimes.. you deserve to be happy too.. :)

from : bloggie-chan

i wanna go home

2011-05-31T06:40:00.000-07:00

seriously i'm not fully prepared for this semester..

i feel lazy and i'm not feeling so well..

i feel heat in my body,

my head is becoming more more heavier this few days

i have runny nose and it's torturing

please help me, take me to my home..

but whatever happens.. i'm going to my classes.. and I WONT EVER MISSED IT!!

huh~

and! and! i think thanks to my friends.. i feel very light and happier now.. :)

gyaaa~~

i hope getting much better soon so that i can be happy as myself before!

:DD

faziana! ganbatte ne!! YOSH2!! xDD hohohohohohoho~

let go

2011-05-30T08:01:00.000-07:00

it's time to let go..

dont you agree faz?

from : bloggie-chan

truth

2011-05-30T05:28:00.000-07:00

it's been so long i keep hiding this..

i keep avoiding this

i keep distance from it..

but i believe someday will come to be a fully truthful person and can express my truly feeling towards others..

it's just a hope..

i keep torturing myself by doing this.. but i still believe Allah that heard all my intuition, my feelings would lead me to a way of happiness..

i just hope that i'm not away from His side.. :)

Alhamdulillah..

here we go..

2011-05-26T08:03:00.000-07:00

amir going to leave us..

gyaboo~

really really it's going to be awkward without him..

so what are we going to do now?

my papa left me alone with mama and bibik... :'(

mama!! you should stop him!!

happy birthday pak jul~

2011-05-26T00:30:00.000-07:00

zul, aku tau aku terlambat nak wish..

tp aku igt birthday kau 10/5!!

tp aku x dapat nak wish sbb kau tau2 lah kan.. :)

sorry x angkat fon, x balas msej sume..

seriously aku rase besalah..

mst kau bengang gile rase nak belasah2 aku kan?

hahahahahaha!! xDD

aku tau lah zul..

sorry tau zul, aku x dpt jumpe kau pon walaupon aku cuti sem..

same goes tu elf2 yg len..

haih~ seriously you guys are my bestest friend.. i cannot find replacement for my elfs.. TT^TT

ok~ back to topic about zul..

zul, kau ok je kan? result kau camane? kau jgn gtau nak give up ke ape.. mmg aku rase nak dushum2 kau!

time kasih sgt2 sbb slalu jage aku kalau kite kua ke ape..

name pon abang kan.. :DD

hahahahaha!

len kali kalau dapat tiket free ke ape, aku ajak kau lagi.. kalau dapat banyak aku ajak sume kalau boleh..

ouh~ aku minta maaf sgt2 tau! *besalah gile*

tp mmg rindu lah ngan korg sume..

maybe someday kite jumpe lagi..

happy birthday *sorry lambat sgt wish* HAHAHAHAAHAHAH!!!! xD

a day with my grandma

2011-05-25T19:30:00.000-07:00

woah~ today it's my job to take care of my grandma

here's the schedule for today

7.15 am- drop my mom at lrt cempaka

7.20 am - nenek! here i come!

7.30 am - greet nenek and ayah.. seems like nenek really sick, she's wearing selimut that abang bought.. *terharu* sob2! today activity is.. watching and make sure nenek eat all the medicine

8.00 am - make water and serve biscuits for nenek because she wont eat nasi lemak.. (i ended up finish it) aigoo~ >___<

then.. give nenek her medicines

8.30 am -serve nenek her another medicine for sore throat

8.32 am - looking at baby tikus mondok outside that been caught by ayah.. (poor thing... TT^TT)

2.30 pm - take emak and bring her to hospital..

6.00 pm- maybe arrive home..

gyaboo~ bloggie chan.. my eyes like panda now.. woahahahah!! xDD

my boyfriends..

2011-05-25T18:51:00.000-07:00

kiyowo~ nomu kiyowo~ xDD

falling in love with them especially the twins..(youngmin(blondie) and kwangmin(rapper))

and minwoo the maknae looks like nino-kun(arashi)

xDD

gyaboo~

look what you've done

2011-05-25T11:38:00.000-07:00

serve me right!!! gyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa~

all the cute animals turns to villains.. scary.. >__<

like2!

2011-05-25T11:16:00.000-07:00

hwang jung eum

woori

being the best among the best

2011-05-25T09:01:00.000-07:00

hey bloggie-chan..

last night.. i've checked my result..

since everybody were so excited about their result..

let me tell mine..

i wont tell much,

Alhamdulillah.. thinking about how many times i went to library for assignments and also for study..

it's really worth it.

but i did not satisfied!! really!!

i think, i'm soo lazy this sem.. all i did is hang out, have fun, and i think i did not study so much..

but thank to Allah.. i scored again.. :)

thanks to my family and friends too..

i really appreciate it..

without them.. i think i cannot do much..

just making me confident.. i really appreciate it.. thanks thanks thanks!!

hurm...

i'm homie.. now.. for 2 days..

my grandma become so thin now.. i just met her before..

tomorrow it's my responsibility to take care of my grandma!

i'll make sure she eat all the medicine..

i'm going to make sure she's getting better!

gidarijumuseyo!

ano..

truly..

i hope someday.. they would really understand me and also.. not getting boring for waiting..

waiting is something annoying..

i know.. :)

it's been 18 years.. i'm waiting for meet someone who could pull me from this..

bu still, i'm being faithful and loyal..

it's going to be another year..

i hope i still patience and waiting again.. :D

'whatever happen! you still have me!' i wish somebody could tell me that right now..

but people in our life keep come and go..

they wont stick too long.. people always come and go..

like what i've studied in microeconomics

i am perfect competition

that easy to entry and exit from the market..

(if you get profit from the market, you should stay.. if loss, you should exit and close the company)

get what i've meant? :D

so faz.. you have to bear it k? YOSH2!!!! ^0^

AHHH!!!

before i forgot!

my bro kantoi lg from he's great and awesome little sister!!

MWAHAHAHA!!

i'm just too hebat! mwohoho~

it's normal thing.. but i still cant believe it..

i'm keeping it.. but he's not.. :)

human.. as for them..

promise are made to be broken..

but not for me! :D

MWAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!

heey yaa~

2011-05-24T11:54:00.000-07:00

hurm2!!
it's going to be new semester soon..
and guess what?
the girl who being bullied is going to be seniorr!!!
*YEEEEEEEEEEEEEAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i dont know why i'm happy..
maybe i used to be youngest at everything..
i am maknae..

tell you a secret bloggie-chan
i'm not good with handling kids..
i like them.. but they hate me.. :(
because they hate me, i did not talk much with other kids..
why?
because i'll ended up being bullied by them..
it's a true story!
i'll always being enemy to kids..
i've being hit with long stick and my head bleeding because of it..
i've being kick by kid and luckily my brother scold that kid..
i've being bite, many more..
and also being slave to them..

for those girls out there might think it's fun playing with this kids..
for those boys also must want a good gf/wife that good handle the kids..

I DONT CARE!!1 *actually really care*
gyaboo~
truly i'm jealous with those people who being loved by kids..

gyaboo~ i miss my elfs so much..
how are you doin meg?
are you in great condition lulu?
where have you been sue?
what are you doing now buri?
with whom you've been friends zul?
which part in this world are you right now belut?

and also..
are you still love me diru? HAHAHAHAHHA!! XDD
never heard anything from you nobu?
where are you actually gaga?
antoo air, i'm curious what are you goin to do now?

in addition
will you forgive me for not keeping my promise emy?
you still ok ain?
are you still non-stop giving lecture, ayep?
you're not going to quit are'nt you, amir?

haih~ there's a lot too..

hoh! last saturday..
my grandma was admit to hospital..
having difficulties with breathing
but unfortunately, i'm at kedah.. i'm so dead worried when hear the news from my cousin..
i become so emotional when she said.. 'doctor x cek lagi' for sooo many times..
i'm getting angry and very dissapointed!
but luckily.. day by day.. she recovered.. and tomorrow, my gradma goin to be CHECK OUT from hospital..
and i made my promise..
'nenek, adik balik nnt tau.. adik janji'

dont make me scared like that again.. >___<'

sorry

2011-05-19T04:02:00.000-07:00

i'm sorry i cant make it..

just wanna let you guys know..

omma, i love you.. you know that right? :) be strong like always.. i'll be back sooner or later.. could you please bear it.. just for a moment.. till then... we meet again.. :D

my elfs(meglulusueburizulaideel) missing you guys a lot.. but i cannot reach you guys.. nor contact.. i hope you guys live a happy life.. without me.. it's still ok right? :D

emy, amir and ayep, sorry.. i've broken my promise already.. maybe some other time.. or.. itupon kalau kita kawan lagi kan? haha.. emy, sorry k.. i know you want to go soo badly.. but.. it seems bad luck is chasing me after all.. :)

abang niez, sorry.. i miss you a lot too.. :) maybe someday we will meet again? if we have chances..

hei2.. i'm not being so dramatic ok.. dont take it as a note that i'm going to dead or leaving so far away..

just in case..

i'm happy.. :D there's a bunch of stories that i dont know where to start.. if we meet again..

hohohohoo!! ^0^

admire

2011-05-18T08:54:00.001-07:00

lee jong suk~ <3

aigoo~ kawaii angelic face +cool..

he's new.. so he's a bit too shy when first time attending to show..

he's really different from the drama he act(secret garden)

in the drama.. he is super cool and cold attitude.. no smiling face only fierce looking attitude..

like cat..

*really grab my attention*

but in the reality..

he's an innocent looking boy who love to smile.. :)

he really looks like cat

omoo~ omoo~ kiyowo jong suk ah~

kojooo!!!!!

joo sang wook~

he... really... wahhh~

i dont know why i love look at him..

maybe he's good with formal outfit..

*gyabooo~ i really love guy with formal outfit*

with that cool face..

it's a no way why people wont look at him..

coolness + cute attitude

*melt like ice cream*

hahahahahaha!! xDD

again~

here we go for model of the day..

*give applause*

i am a normal person

2011-05-15T11:21:00.000-07:00

is it wrong to become ordinary person?

i'm not perfect..

i have feelings..

i have my own attitude

i have everything that normal person have..

i want to be happy

as human.. i know it's greedy but i want to happy like other people too..

i want to have my life, my own way

being a good girl maybe it is not enough for you..

because of you..

i had to get rid of my feelings

even if i laugh happily, it's wrong..

even when i cry, i'll be scolded

even if i angry, i'll be hated

even when i'm talk, i'll be accused

even when i silent, i am the one who cant speak

even if i do anything.. i'm the one who be blame..

i am a human being..

all the emotions.... still i keep it.. keep it alone

i hope i could have a box that could leave all my feelings in there..

but i'm just human being..

making a mistake is a learn from it..

i'm not an angel

who can become perfect all the time..

is it a sins for just becoming a person?

tell me...

i have feelings too.. but i still keep it well.. keep it..

till the time come.. i just want to become myself

although the day would not come..

i just wait and pray for it..

i am the stalker

2011-05-15T11:15:00.000-07:00

hahah! actually i'm not..

i just take a look at that blog.. and i guess i wondering so much about it..

i guess it means a lot to me to.. :)

random questions

2011-05-14T13:37:00.000-07:00

Do you remember your favourite teacher?

-yep! Puan Helen Jee Jun Kim.. although she's not teaching me.. she always give me support and told me i am the best.. :)

Which are your 2 favorite careers and why?

1. chairman of company-because i have a lot of power, money that satisfy me..

2. doctor(it wont happen)-i love helping people.. save many peoples make me feel fully satisfied. but it wont happen now ea?

Which is the hardest thing you ever had to do?

-jpj test.. it's hard for me.. :P

When was the last time you lied and to whom and why?

-just few minutes ago i lied to my sunbaenim because i dont want to tell what actually i feel about this semester break.. sorry sunbae..

Tell me about something you really regret?

-for being born... i'm sorry but i dont want to lie..

Tell me about a mistake you made?

-i carelessly repair my guitar strings.. haih..

Tell me about someone in your family?

-omma? she's the best in the world.. i wonder how can she be so strong, smile widely although many things happens.. and even.. having a child like me quite a troublesome.. sorry omma, i cant celebrate mother's day this year.. i cried during that day.. i hope i could wish you.. or at least make you smile..

Tell me about your favorite book, magazine or comic?

book! dewey novel.. because it's about a cute cat.. :)) and comics!! i have tons of it.. i collect it.. i hope one day it become value.. and i could read i back! i love it! mangas, shin chan, doraemon(being rampas already), detective conan.. all of them i collect!

Tell me about someone you envy?

huh? i jealous someone that being closed with my favourite person! i envy when she knows everything about my fav.. example.. she/he knows better about big bang than me.. *jealous*

Tell me about something you've achieved?

-i'm not an active student.. because all the sports provided at schools and uni not matched with someone who interested in basketball like me.. so i usually play alone.. heh? running from topic..

i usually achieved in studies.. be a good student..

Tell me about the worst punishment you had when you were a child?

-being left in somebody home.. eventhough how much i cried and beg..

Tell me about your first kiss (if it is possible)?

-nope nope nope.. i have'nt yet..

Tell me about someone you really admire?

-currently, still admire big bang.. they really have their own specialty.. especially g-dragon.. he is really determined person and a great leader.. fashionable, creative in making songs and make people go addicted to his songs.. cool..

Tell me about the last movie you've watched?

-Thor-wahh~ it's so cool making me wanna be like him..

Tell me about a country you would like to visit most and why?

South Korea because i want to feel it's weather.. and wanna visits the places where they making drama and films.. is it is beautiful as in the drama.. is it true? and!! i wanna see advertisements and concerts over there.. in addition.. i really want to try having conversations with the locals over there.. :)

Tell me about your favourite music / song / band?

-big bang!! super junior!!

Tell me about something you would happily do again?

-have vacation with my family except someone.. :DD or maybe have a trip with friends.. that would be nice too.. :DD

Name your 5 favorite foods?

-ice cream

-fresh meat

-chocolate

-cheese

-pasta

when it will be ended..

2011-05-14T02:30:00.000-07:00

i know.. it isnt fun at all..

reading and knowing somebody life..

just like a drama.. but the differences is.. how much you know about the feelings of the main character.. and life is about a drama till death

i know i crappy a lot in this blog..

i'm used to be a cheerful girl.. now.. i'm still trying..

with the support of my friends..

nah.. you could erase that.. soon after.. you about to lose them too.. although you dont want to let them go so damn much..

but sooner or later.. they will become bored to hear your story..

so do yourself.. you become careful to tell about your story.. because you afraid they become boring..

so you keep it yourself..

before..

you have friends.. that truly understand you..

they are really friend..

but it's you.. yourself.. you cannot contact with them.. you cannot talk..

you cannot tell them either..

so what's left?

family?

even they cant help you..

so tell me.. what can i do?

keep telling them you happy although you're not..

keep smiling although it's a force one.. or maybe fake one

it's true.. i'm always been accused doing that..

so, should i cry?

i think there's no more tears for me..

angry?

it never help even once..

i'm thinking and still thinking..

what should i do to satisfied me and also.. you?

ler me and you know

2011-05-06T07:13:00.000-07:00

see? see? my hair used to be long!!! haha! up there is my latest pic..

haih~

2011-05-06T06:42:00.000-07:00

now.. i am deeply deeply scared... why why why?
because jpj test coming soon..
ottokae.. i'm so damn worried about it since last few months..
(exam lame lg da start risau)
whenever i think about it.. i feel uneasy..
it's more hard than spm or final..
i just hope i can do better..

gyaboo~ i hate this feeling of waiting and siffering when days passed..
i wanna run away but i could not..
TT^TT how should i~ how should i!!

hoh~ before this, i'm not this kind of greedy and want all..
I JUST WANT LICENSE!!!
TT^TT
omoo~

i made a history today

2011-04-14T07:42:00.000-07:00

today i just copy answers from Mohd Arief Noor Zamanhuri..

HAHAHAH!!

i'v never copied anyone before in tests or exams..

but actually it's a test where work in pair.. but i've ended up cannot think anything and all i read lost to nowhere...

these few days makes me really REALLY tired!

all i want to have good enough sleep and rest well.. but i've ended up struggling to finish our assignments.. with my blur minded.. feel like a fool..

everyday done the assignments and i cant see ending to it..

i also feel sorry for ayep and emy because they done sooooo much to finish the assignment..

i'm nothing but a piece of crap..

i guess soo...

my friend once told me that 'what did you do when there is no one besides you?'

at first.. i didnt damn care about it..

but i guess he's right..

what should i do?

being alone is easy.. but struggling for life is hard...

i am alone but i dont know how to take care my ownself..

lucky me to have friends who really took care of me..

thanks friends.. :')

HB MEG!

2011-04-02T05:58:00.000-07:00

hey.. it's being a looooooooooooooonnggggg timee..

long journey

eventhough we've being seperated..

i wanna to tell ya..

i miss you a lot!

happy birthday my friend!

saengil chukahamnida chinguya!

just being "J"

2011-03-31T05:07:00.000-07:00

here we goooo~ meet my closest friends in uitm..

from left, it's bibik, anak, papa, mama n tukang masak

or... ayep, faz, amir, emy and ain..

last night i went to play basketball at behind rumah tamu..

i had been there before but i never noticed uitm have a basketball court.. since rugby is soooo popular here.. *but still i hate rugby*

so.. luckily emy accompany me going to there..

as i thought.. it's awkward...

there is keciq sunbae, dania and her classmates.. and they are boys..

really really awkward!

i thought that we're goin to play with girls.. but unfortunately... like or not.... haaiihhhh~

so at first we play half court.. 4 on 4.. then, 3 on 4, then full court 5 on 4..

what am i doing?

embarrasing myself..

rebut ngan team mates..

stand still and doin nothing

cannot pass the ball..

i cant see the ball..

i even cant see my teammates..

*annoying with myself!!!*

i hate HATE HATE MYSELF LIKE THAT!!!*

suddenly.. i remember.. i used to play basketball with brothers same age like we are right now..

but before... i was only 12.. and i play it with 19-30 ages of the brothers and basketball court located at taman nirwana.. cool isnt it? :D

abang2 at there really like me.. and treat me like their own sister.. :) so kind..

but..

i guess everything change.. so am i..

i'm become a teenage girl..

play with boys same age with me.. now... i feel.... awk.... ward....

i think the boys also thought i am a fool at playing basketball..

i guess soo....

HAHA!!!

ENOUGH OF BASKETBALL! now i wanna tell story what happen last night...

while i'm playing basketball.. emy missed call amir using my phone..

then amir, call me back..

i have no idea and then.. i pick it up..

then start with my crying voice..

faz:Amirr.... amirr... tolong aku mir.. sob2.. mir.. tolong aku.. aku x tau nak wat ape ni amir..

amir: hah? ko knape ni? *diam...*

faz: amir.. wooo woooo~

emy: amir! kitorg sesat ni amir.. kitorg x dapat balik uitm..sob2!

faz: amirr.... camane ni amir.. wooo~

amir: korg nangis dulu.. aku nak gi berak jap

faz: amir!! sampai ati ko buat kitorg camni amir!!

amir: lahhh! pintu gate x tutup lg.. masuk lah

faz: gate da tutup... camane ni amir

emy: 2erty8hfwnc98yuw0

amir: haaa? baru pukul bape gate nak tutup.. belom kol 11 lagi.. menipu je

faz: (alamak.. kantoi pulak)

pastu letak...

then.. amir call balik

amir: wei korg kat mane?

emy: amir...kitorg x tau kat mane.. kitorg da sesat ni.. camane ni amir.. tolonglah kitorg.. woooo~

faz:amir... kitorg takut gile camane ni..

emy: dah la banyak rempit.. amir tolong kitorg amir... TT^TT

amir: jap2 aku kol polis

emy n faz: weihhh!!! jgn kol polis!

pastu ayep call..

ayep: weh2.. sires ni. siries lah ni! korg kat mane? kalau kitorg dapat tahu korg menipu.. memang x de kelemak, x de keluar sume, kite berpecah..

dan saya letak tipon..

hahahahah!!

then..

kitorg call balik and said soorryy sume..

pastu amir call.. dia gtau polis dah datang alor gajah.. pak gad dah bekumpul sume...

emy and me da takot da...

last2 die gtau BETOL LAH.. BETOL LAH KORG KNE JOGE!

mmg mencarut sume keluar lah! SHOOT SHOOT!!!!

nak knekan dorg.. kitorg terkena balik..

susa betol lah nak menang... haih haih~ TT^TT

p/s:sbnrnye cite panjang lg tp maleh nak tulis... hahahaha!! xDD

AWESOME #SS3!!!!!!

2011-03-20T00:10:00.000-07:00

blue ball kissed by eunhyuk! woot woot!

donghae is a bean sprout!

sungmin!

yesunggg!!

wookie! :)

kim hee chul! SARANGHAE! WU JU DAE STAR KIM HEECHUL! SARANGHAEYO KIM HEE CHUL!

let me help ya

hahahahha!! KICK YOU KICK YOU eunhyuk!!

leavin eunhyuk..

eunhyuk: HEYYYY!!!!!!

THERE'S SO MANY MOREEE!! but i'm so lazy to upload..

it was daebak!!!

see the blue ball? it was kissed by eunhyuk! i get it!! yeayyyy!!!!!

I manage to handshake with eunhyuk, donghae and sungmin!!!

my hubby kim hee chul not feeling very well.. :(

my baby cho kyu hyun been pulled by fans!! >:0 i'm so damn angry with the fans!

no need to hurt him!

but overall.. i manage to get ticket from sir!

SIR HAFEEZ TOTALLY ROCKS!

*but he cheat me.. as well.. hahaha

nevermind.. it's already happens.. and i really enjoy the super show!

the beginning was TADAAA!!!!

they so cute.. very friendly!

GYABOOOO~ i want to go next concert..

now.. counting days for big bang tp come here..

the rumours said it's 4th june..

xDD

how am i gonna get vip and backstage ticket..

hurmmm......

*brainstorming*

#ss3

2011-03-18T06:51:00.000-07:00

OH MY OH MY!!

i'm over excited.. i think my tears going to fall... xD GYAHAHAHAHAHAHAH!!

hellow! anyone can hear me?

2011-03-14T08:23:00.000-07:00

meet me in the future.. HAHAH~

hye bloggie-chan!

before this i have sooo many thing to talk to you..

but when i'm in front of you i forgot what to say..

tuuut tuuut...

hurm.. i know! suddenly i was thinking about this story!*story ni ade tokok tambah*

ni cerita dari Datuk Azlina.. yg kat tengah2 tu...

Pada suatu hari ada seorang pemuda yang bekerja sebagai pendayung sampan.. dia amat miskin..

tiba2 ada seorang prof naik sampan dia. prof ni berpelajaran tinggi, berilmu, kaya dan sombong. dia amatlah bangga dengan dirinya sendiri.

kemudian, dia bertanya lah kepada pemuda itu..

prof: awak ni masih muda.. adakah awak masih belajar?

pemuda: tidak tuan, saya hanya mendayung sampan sahaja

prof: rugilah awak!

pemuda: kenapa tuan?

prof: sebab awak dah hilangkan 15% dr hidup awak hanya untuk mendayung sampan..

lalu.. pemuda itu pon mendayung sampan itu.. kemudian prof itu bertanya lagi kepadanya

prof: setinggi manakah awak belajar wahai pemuda? sampai tingkatan 5 kah? tingkatan 3 kah?

pemuda: tidak tuan, saya hanya belajar sehingga darjah 3 sahaja

prof: kenapa awak tidak mahu belajar?

pemuda: keluarga saya tidak mampu untuk membiayai pelajaran saya tuan. saya berasal dari keluarga miskin. sedangkan bapa saya dahulu seorang pendayung sampan. kalau ikutkan hati tuan, saya memang nak belajar tetapi apakan daya, saya tidak mampu..

prof: rugilah awak pemuda! awak sudah hilangkan 15% dalam hidup awak!

lalu.. pemuda itu mendiamkan diri dan terus mendayung... kemudian, tiba sampan itu bergoyang-goyang lalu prof itu menjadi gelabah..

prof: apakah yang terjadi wahai pemuda?

pemuda: biar saya tengok dulu tuan.... tuan, sampan kita sudah bocor tuan..

prof: apa?

kemudian, pemuda itu berusaha mengeluarkan air dari sampan itu.. tetapi akhir sekali sampan itu tenggelam jua.. prof itu terkapai kapai meminta bantuan..

prof: tolong! tolong!!

pemuda: kenapa? tuan tidak tahu berenang?

prof: ya! saya tidak tahu berenang! selamatkan saya!

pemuda: RUGILAH TUAN! TUAN DAH HILANGKAN 100% DALAM HIDUP TUAN!

lalu.. mati lemaslah prof itu kerana tidak tahu berenang...

ok! dah habis dah cerita.. best x? walaupon x byk bg effect kat korg.. tp aku x tau lah knape cerita ni melekat kat kepala aku.. :)

I'VE GOT RM 50!!!!!

YOHOHOH~

back to english!! yeah!

okkiep!

my picture over there? i got it! RM 50! i got from Datuk Azlina.. i really admire her.. her courage and now become a billionare.. a woman who succeed in her life not because she inherit her family money of treasure.. it's she who work hard for everything and now.. she deserve it..

gyabooo! i want to be like her!

BAIK DATUK! saya memang mata duitan!! MWAHAHAHAHAA!!

ok! ckp pasal mata duitan pulak.. tetibe teringat pulak ape nak cite..

i am.. mata duitan.. i work hard for money and i will get what i want! this i promise to myself..

but promise to Allah is much2 more important!

dulu.. masa tingkatan2 dulu.. korg igt x ape aku cakap?

aku nak kwan ngan kawin ngan orang kaya nnt.. itu paling penting! x kisahlah rupa semua.. asalkan aku kaya! mwahahahah!!

tp skrg.. i dont care.. i love being friends.. although i dont know how to be friend.. i like be friend with those who are really appreciate me..

it's not i want their money so bad! i just want to be friend.. i dont need your money at all...

thus, buying and using your own money is much more better than using others..

i also dont want to be a friend who people said 'pisau cukur' or 'dia ni mudah dibeli'

i dont want that!

but i dont care anymore.. it's their own mouth..

i want to be their punching bag.. i want to be a person who know everything first.. *selfish*

it's not that i'm busybody with her/his life.. it's how i want them to be comfortable with me..

but look at me.. i'm not kind of person who easy to talk like others..

p/s: sometimes we cannot trust the most trusted friend either right? trust me? dont if you dont want to.. even your closest bestest friend would talk about you in the back.. then.. they spread the rumours... i dont get it..

if i know it from the first place.. i would not tell ya about me..

hell ya.. you dont know me.. so.. spread the rumours more..

i know how they looking at me.. but let me say it...

i've already spent my 19 years for keeping my secret for my own self.. and i guess.. i need someone to share it.. but now.. i totally regret what i did... i know i cannot trust them..

leader!!! YOU USELESS!! hahahah!!

it's weird.. i did'nt tell anyone about your secrets you tell me..

it's weirder when you expect me to tell your secrets to others...

i just stay silent.. but you just cannot shut your own mouth to tell your secrets to others..

it is the most I CANNOT UNDERSTAND thing i ever thought!

okkieh! bloggie-chan!

annoying

2011-03-09T10:25:00.000-08:00

hey bloggie-chan..

gyaboo~ today.. i didnt get sleep well.. no.. i'm wrong.. I DID NOT GET SLEEP AT ALL!!

now i think i'm having sore throat and last night i barely have difficulties in breathing..

i can feel my brain so tired right now and keep asking my body.. 'I WANT TO SLEEP!!! GO TO SLEEP!!'

but it didnt happens like it seems..

now i feel very want to scold people.. get angry.. feel annoyed with something simple..

before you guys continue read it..

i want to say.. i'm sorry, i'm sorry, i'm sorry, i'm sorry, i'm sorry

because i'm NOT in good mood.. i feel offended..

please lah..

i'm not like you guys.. i'm different(i think it's x100000000 i said this)

i dont know what you guys meant..

sometimes with your adult attitude making me annoying..

haa~ i dont want to say it no more.. bye2!

respect PLEASE?!

2011-03-02T06:49:00.000-08:00

bloggie-chan!!!!

i'm getting fed up this days.. really am..

i said them before i dont wanna be ketua level..

i didnt deserve it.. i know my own limits.. i know i cannot handle them well.. i know i didnt communicate well and also i know everyone not being respect to me..

but on other hand.. i'm still be a ketua level at all.. =__=' what a stupid person i am..

i know how much responsibilities do a ketua level have..

they need to be commitment with their job..

but i'm not that kind of person who willingly offer myself just for my college..

i have a lot to do..

rather than studying.. i have to play my roles as a daughter in my family too..

i miss them.. and my friends to..

you never guess how busy i am do you?

i just wanna be a good student and enjoy my life..

and well..

i tried enjoy being a leader..

having fun with levelmates..

i dont wanna them to feel tension and i dont want to treat me like i am the boss..

i even didnt raise my voice, scold them and force them to join the activities.. EVEN it is compulsory..

have i did it to you guys? no right?

if it is really COMPULSORY.. how do i treat you guys?

while you guys just talk back and feel annoyed with the MT's.. what did i do?

i persuade you.. i talk very lightly.. i never get angry with you guys am i?

when you said you dont wanna join? have i ever force you to do so?

even so you angry with the MT's.. what did i do? i just stay silent..

i treat you so nice.. but the thing is.. you guys never respect me do ya?

i admit i am so childish.. i love to play around.. my voice.. x yah cakap la kan..

just because of that.. you guys never respect me.. you know how much i'm pi***d off everytime you guys make the face?

no respect at all...

from the first.. who ask me to be ketua level? who? who?

SO IF YOU GUYS NO RESPECT AT ALL AS A LEADER... DONT PICK ME TO BE YOURS!

you wanna have your own ways? FINE! do as you want..

dont ever ask me to be your MT level! i'm hurt now!

p/s: sesape yg bace dan terasa.. amikkan pedoman.. saya juga bukan manusia sempurna.. nak mintak kerjasama, komitmen pon susa korg ni.. pas ni kalau ade pape.. jgn nak suro aku lg lah kan.. korg kan pandai2 belaka, korg kan hebat2, aku ni kan lembab x cam korg.. korang lg dewasa n matured dr aku.. korg buatlah sukahati korg lepas ni... cuba kalau korg semangat nak join.. aku mst lg semangat nak handle matter2 college ni.. sekian terima kasih.. :D minta maaf sgt2 kalau terkasar bahasa.. jgn terasa k...

unresistable!

2011-02-27T08:17:00.000-08:00

kiyopta!! xDD

ppkp part 2 dbs2g!

2011-02-27T07:29:00.000-08:00

heyya~ we're rock and awesome!

the things you cant imagine

2011-02-27T03:58:00.000-08:00

everyone have their own life..

you just dont know how much they suffer, how much they happy about just a little simple things..

have you ever had their lifes?

even i.. i would ask a same thing to myself..

i never had their life..

yes!

i am a passive person.. sir Rahim was right about everything..

i tried to think positively.. but i ended up crushing myself..

1 more thing..

i'm glad when you're here and keep listening to me.. every word i've shared with you.. i hope you can understand me.. somebody would not listen.. rather.. they just want a sympathy from others..

i dont need it..

i miss my elfs so much..

another 1 more thing..

keep avoiding? :) just wanna let you know.. i'm just not like others.. yea~ i am a passive person..

i living in my own dream world to seek for happiness.. :D

BIG BANG!

2011-02-23T20:49:00.000-08:00

omooo~ wooot!! woot!!! xDD seungri! gdragon! taeyang! daesung! top!!!

WOAH WOAH!! SUPER COOLL!!!!

their songs.. awesome!!!

*cant wait to watch their new mv.. their pictures!

*super excited! forgot my class..

seriusly~

2011-02-22T20:48:00.000-08:00

kau igt kau kecik sgt ke?

x pon...

kau igt kau besar sgt ke?

tp sememangnya.. bile depan diorg.. susa nak ckp... jaga hati kan..

fuhhh~

2011-02-21T20:37:00.001-08:00

heechul oppa~ <3>ticket dont be sold out!!

wait for 25 feb!! just 3 more days!!!

woohh~ TT^TT i wanna go with my brother..

hurm...

last night i feel very relieved.. my brother called me and we were talking... :)

at that moment.. i feel i'm not alone.. at least somebody would talk to me..

the word that..

'dont worry.. i will take care of you'

it makes me feel more happier and protected..

but actually.. it just words that came out..

and cannot be happens..

we're just be alone.. and live with our fake smiles..

easy? no.. it's much more killing ourselves.. :D

but still... we continue doing this..

kinda weird

2011-02-20T08:06:00.000-08:00

being a dork

yesterday my father came to uitm and we have a ride around bandaraya melaka..

i saw soooo many rempit..

aigooooo~ please lah..

zzzz~ i dont wanna talk about it.. it's embarassing

second episode

i saw a couple.. an old couple.. so sweet.

i think they just finished their business.. a small gerai..

they pull that gerai together across the road.. laugh together.. and put that gerai back to their homie...

i want to be like that when i'm grow old..

although they poor.. but they have a great life..

love each other.. smile together..

i'm being jealous.. i wish i could be like that..

:DD coooll isnt it?

omooo omooo~ ji yong-ah~ let's be like that! xDD hahahahha! *perasan*